15%

One important detail I forgot to mention a couple of posts ago was that there is a 15% chance that everything will be ok. Never has a number meant so much to me. I just keep trying to tell myself that I will be a part of that 15%. That's going to be my number. I am going to be on the positive side of a medical statics this time. I am trying to be positive, have it come from the very core of me and shine out like a little sunbeam. But I feel like I have this rain cloud pouring down over my head making that impossible.